magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

bean is not actually from antarctica. his heart is covered in paisleys.

he makes tiny little pictures and sometimes writes about his life.

Untitled.

1 October 1998

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rabbit, rabbit.

last night, i noticed that almost everyone at the show seemed like the type of people that i would have been friends with in high school. it was a little odd, but comforting in a way.

jessica bailiff opened. imagine codeine with feedback and girl vocals. in other words, pretty cool. i bought a cd.

ida were great. despite a number of sound problems, the fact that there were lights above the stage that shined right at the front of the audience, and their obvious nervousness at playing a room that large (and it wasn't really that large), it was all terribly cool. they played a number of new songs, one which was even only a fragment of an unfinished new song, as well as taking audience requests and deviating from the set list. and they played "shoe-in". liz messed up the vocals and dan's guitar sounded a little out of tune, but it was still way beautiful.

i had never actually heard low. i've been meaning to pick up some of their albums for years cause of all the codeine comparisons, but have never gotten around to it. i'm definitely going to now. they were really cool. i didn't enjoy their set quite as much as i could, 'cause i spent most of it worried about the time, and paranoid that i would miss the last train out of new york. i moved over closer to the door during their encore (right by wear ida were standing and watching), and didn't stick around long enough to buy a t-shirt or cds of their's. (although i did pick up ida's yet to be released new ep, and an album of stuff they did with retsin, and their first two cds, and an album by beekeeper, karla's band.)

i got to grand central with about 45 mins to spare, so i really didn't have to leave quite so quick, but i guess it was better than getting stuck in ny overnight. i got a little fitful sleep on the train, and got home about 430am.

after less sleep that i would have liked, i went into li this morning to find that marc was the only one there, everyone else was sick or didn't feel like coming in or whatever. and marc was actually sick too, so he went home to get some cold medicine, s'posedly to come back, although he didn't. we still only have one phone line in the office, so we weren't online, so i couldn't do most of the work i have to get done, but i figured i could do some graphics work. and then the power went out. it was out for most of the afternoon. but it made for a kinda quiet day. which was nice. alex wrote me email yesterday to tell me that i've been working too hard. and i really kinda had the day to myself. but, of course this means that everything's a little more backed up, and will be a little harder to get under control.

last week daniel mentioned to me that he had been thinking about where he was in life and what else he could be doing than driving himself crazy managing a constantly on the brink of failure isp. and really, there's other things that i could be doing with my life too. although i still feel that li is the best alternative to a real job. and we just got two fancy new servers. (or rather i just got two fancy new servers, i was talking with reggie this afternoon, and we remarked that plenty of former li employees have gone on to start their own web design companies, and i could prolly always find somewhere to co-locate my new servers if the end ever comes.) but i still like li. even after everything. i like the fact that we're a local company offering internet access to the community. i like the way we run an office (when daniel's not in a bad mood anyway). i like playing foursquare. 'course some of that doesn't matter as i'm leaving in three weeks, but still.

maybe things will seem a little less bleak when we have phone lines again. we'll see.