magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

bean is not actually from antarctica. his heart is covered in paisleys.

he makes tiny little pictures and sometimes writes about his life.

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23 October 1998

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dreams: i decided to go out for a walk on a cool, but bright, mid-fall morning, much like today. i was in a nice, semi-rural neighborhood, and there were kids (about kindergarten age) waiting for the schoolbus, which didn't seem to be coming. there was a car on the road (the only automobile in this dream) being driven by one of my mom's artist friends. i entered a building that may have been part of a private school, because it seemed like the shortest distance to the hillside that i wanted to look out from over the fall colours. i wandered around for a while, through a few empty hallways, and opened a door that seemed a little misplaced, as it was a few feet down to the staircase which was along the wall of a large open room bustling with people, kinda like the main room at grand central station, but not quite as large and mostly lit by natural light from the outside. i was headed across the room to a door that lead back out into the fall-coloured world, but was distracted by a woman about my age speaking chinese (although she was a westerner). and as she walked off i noticed that er!n and her mom were standing right in front of me. er!n was upset about something, but i didn't find out what. i was worried that it would look like i had been following her or something, but really it was a complete coincidence to run into her there. we stepped onto some escalators that didn't really seem to go anywhere.

i also remember a flash of a dream with er!n showing up at my mom's frame shop while i used the computer one night.