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29 August 1999
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i got home at about 615 in the morning. my mom was already up, loading a framing job into her van to be delivered to nyc, which i helped with. i got into bed around seven. and slept late again.
so i'm watching the sliders marathon on the sci-fi channel, and during one of the commercial breaks there was that pain reliever commercial with the couple on their bikes in italy. and i think to myself, damn, i don't ever want to get married.
so i guess this isn't anything new. i go through the phases of wanting nothing more than falling in love and living happily ever after and then feeling as if being half of a couple is just wrong. but then i feel as if giving up on my dreams of faerie tale romance (even temporarily) is selling out. that it's giving in to some sort of more societally acceptable way of thinking.
but on the flipside of that, the whole notion of happily ever after is a very dogmatic sort of dream itself. do i really want it for some reason of my own? or is it simply because it's the way the faerie tales work?
so i'm watching the sliders marathon on the sci-fi channel, and during one of the commercial breaks there was that pain reliever commercial with the couple on their bikes in italy. and i think to myself, damn, i don't ever want to get married.
so i guess this isn't anything new. i go through the phases of wanting nothing more than falling in love and living happily ever after and then feeling as if being half of a couple is just wrong. but then i feel as if giving up on my dreams of faerie tale romance (even temporarily) is selling out. that it's giving in to some sort of more societally acceptable way of thinking.
but on the flipside of that, the whole notion of happily ever after is a very dogmatic sort of dream itself. do i really want it for some reason of my own? or is it simply because it's the way the faerie tales work?