magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

i laid on my floor and watched
the clouds drift by beyond my window
on the day that you left

my teeth hurt
and i had a knot in my stomach
that had only gotten worse
since i realized you were gone

the clouds thickened
turned grey
the wind picked up

i wish that you had said goodbye
or at least told me you were leaving

but maybe you did
in the only way that you could
a week before over dinner
"do you ever lie awake all night thinking?" you asked