magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

this morning, pretty much out of the blue, garth said that he had been thinking about renting a house with his friend sean next year and so wouldn't be living here. as far as anyone knew he and chris.k were going to stay here and christian was going to be taking my place. now chris is going to have to find another roommate or another place to live.

it doesn't directly affect me, but i think i'd be really upset if it did. i realize that garth's got to do what's best for him and all, but i think it's more to do with the fact that he waited until now to bring it up. chris says that he's too exhausted by wintersession to be mad. that was supposed to end with the end f wintersession though, and now he's got something else to worry about.

and it does affect me insofar as it's changed the social dynamic of or household. it's a very similar situation to the types of relationships that garth gets into with girls. they want different things out of it than he does and he feels like an asshole for not being able to be what the want. and i know that he doesn't mean to be an asshole. but there's been an obvious pattern, and now the same thing has occurred in a completely different context. part of the problem, i think, lies in his desire to be the consummate nice guy. he has obviously been thinking about living with sean for quite some time, but didn't say anything until now, probably out of a fear that he was letting chris.k down. but in waiting so long it's only made the situation worse.

you can't be nice all the time. and when you try, i think you just end up letting people down that much harder.