magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

i was up relatively early this morning, and feeling restless. stef just wanted to stay in bed and sleep. and it occurred to me that this was the complete reverse of our typical evening personalities, where i'd be perfectly content to sit around and relax, and she wants to go out to the bar every night after work. and i feel like i should be going out and doing things with her. that i'm missing out on a big part of her life. but i've never been much of a bar person. of course i've never been much of a morning person either.

it was also apparent by today that stef would not be coming home with me this weekend. but i really still had to go. which is sad, because i've been putting off this trip home for the past two months, waiting so that she could come with me. and in another two weeks, which is when i'm likely to be going home again, she's been talking about going to chicago with the girls from work.

spent the day sort of upset over it all.