magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

more stupid insecurites that kept me awake last night. and this morning i asked stef to promise that my insecurities wouldn't drive her away. and of course i'll continue to work on getting over them too.

she left for work, or shopping with kc, i don't remember, and i walked over to the boys via the bagel shop. "you want to go to the beach?" first thing in the door.

"sure. do i have time to eat a bagel?"

it turns out that garth used to go to the same stretch of rhode island beach as a kid that i did, and some family friends of his still have a cottage there. it brought back a lot of memories, flashback to my childhood.

and the beach was fun. i hadn't been in the ocean in years. and i got to use the sunblock that i bought way back at the beginning of the summer and lie in the sun for a while.

back in providence we had a small, private sushi night. lenny was already there hanging out with christain and we didn't make him leave, but we unplugged the phone, turned the doorbell all the way down, and admitted no one else.

and later it occured to me that despite all me insecurities, despite jealousy and stress and stef working and spending time with kc, it really was a good weekend. i finished my paper, hung out with garth ahd chris.k, woke up each morning next to stef.