magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

sam and i drove out to ohio yesterday. although it seemed as if sam had been planning this trip, i got the idea that it was never really more than a vague notion of 'i think i'll drive out to ohio' and that he probably hadn't even told our dad that we were coming. and sure enough, we surprised him when we got here. 'hi. happy late father's day.'

the big deal here this weekend is the annual community buffalo dance. and i guess i respect the beliefs of the people who are participating, but it's not something that i can completely get into. part of me is afraid that my lack of enthusiasm is just a sign of my growing cynicism, but i do still consider myself a spiritual person. i guess i just have to do some more thinking about my own belief systems. time for renewal.

and of course i'm missing stef.