magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

it's so painful in the mornings. i wake up and all i can think of is her. and thoughts that i might never wake up next to her again.

drove into boston with sarah.b this evening to hang out with alex.l. it felt so nice to leave providence. i smiled some. the pain in my stomach went away. i have been progressively feeling a little better (physically, at least) for a while. between the vitamins and the denial. but leaving the city was nice. i'm leaning more and more towards going away for the month of august. somewhere else. trying to write.