magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

this morning i had pretty much convinced myself that i was going to call amy.e later in the day. 'so this might be incredibly stupid, calling you, and if you don't want to talk to me, just say so.' and if she said so, 'i'm terribly sorry for bothering you with this. i really hope you enjoy the rest of your class. guess i'll see you in september.' of course if she did want to talk, or at least didn't actively not want to talk, i'd be back to the place of being at a loss as to what to say exactly. i don't really want to put her in the middle of things, but of course that is basically my motivation in wanting to call her.

and the day clicked by. dropped my car off at the shop. saw a shrink. went to the mall. had lunch with chris.k. got my hiv test results (negative). read. and seven-ish took the trolly over to the mill where cybèle was making dinner for garth's birthday. then the safari lounge for garth's dj debut. up until the trolly, i still thought i'd call. and then my motivation fizzled out. or my better judgment actually got the better of me.