magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

e: This is so saddening I don't know what to do with myself

b: so it's...? i wish i could offer any answers at all. but i spend a lot of my own time pacing and crying and pretty much having no idea what to do.

e: Me too i need help how do you get thru days like this?

b: tv? books? delusions? sometimes forcing myself to get out and do things, but i don't always have the strength, and it doesn't always work. i really don't know.

e: If I had a place for u to stay I'd ask you to drive here right now

b: i know, i wish that i could just come over and we could commiserate.

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er!n took that, and her father's suggestion that she 'call some friends and go out', to heart and invited her 'bestest friends', from wherever they were, to come visit. this involved flying rachel in from phoenix. she was on an overnight flight and would be arriving early in the morning. jason was coming from philadelphia. and she wanted me to drive down too.

in a way i'm jealous. that mid-way through a day of being somewhat overwhelmedly depressed she has managed to assure the appearance of all but one of her most favourite people to cheer her up. but, on the other hand, i'm happy to be a part of that. and getting out and doing something with my own life, spending time with people, instead of the tv, even if they're people that i don't know all that well, is good for my mental well-being too.