magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

your life is as fiction to me. and i am intrigued.

i was telling george that it was all about the narrative. soap operas are fascinating because of all the intertwined stories, even if they're stupid stories. concerts rarely hold my attention because there's no narrative thread, and so i retreat into my own mind, my own story.

your life is fiction. it's written by someone with experiences so different from my own that at time i doubt its authenticity. and yet i'm hooked. like the soap opera that i watched with you two or three times a week. i get caught up. i identify with the hidden motives, with desires, with confusion and loss.

i've said that i would like to get a job acting on a soap opera. i've said that i still want to live my life with you.