magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

i stayed up pretty much all night getting something of a portfolio together and putting it online. some time finishing it this morning. writing a fun, catchy cover letter. and sending off an email for this nifty job. fingers crossed, and all that.

it's a nice feeling to be doing something with my life. looking for an apartment. looking for a job. but i'm still a million miles away from really being 'okay' with any of it.

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george came up to hang out and play some poker tonight. at one point during the game someone had the idea to put half baked in the vcr to play in the background. and the game really fell apart. you can't play poker and watch a movie at the same time.

after jeanette went to bed, daniel and george talked video games (or one particular video game) for a good hour. which bored me senseless. afterwards daniel got up to go to bed and george got up to leave. i was hoping to be able to have a conversation with him about my possible move to new york, to get his opinion. and i think he may have seen it in my expression, taking his gloves back off and sitting down to chat for another hour or so.