magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

So last week when I was approached about working on this project, I said, 'It will take more or less all of next week.'

And was told, 'That's what I was budgeting for it.'

Then, it was three days. Okay. 'Three full days, from the time I get the materials,' I told anyone who would listen. I got the materials mid-day Tuesday. Three full days. Mid-day Friday. And then I'm told it absolutely has to be out by the end of the day Thursday.

And I'm super-talented like that. I bitch and complain, but I get it done. That's why I keep getting these bank projects. But there's a line between being accommodating, and letting them fuck you. When I was informed at 3.30 that the fabricator needed production artwork overnighted to them on a CD for delivery tomorrow, before anything has even been approved (and there's no way there won't be changes), I had to draw a line. 'No way,' I said.

'I agree with you,' Chris.W told me. 'But that's not our call to make.'

'Well whose call is it? Get them on the phone. If I have to explain to them exactly why that's counterproductive and not going to happen, I will.'

We ended up having a long conversation about it. I'm frustrated. He understands, he's frustrated, but there's nothing he's in position to do. He's just as much of a doormat as I am when it comes to these projects. And that's why he keeps getting put on them.

We may be in a boat together, but he's still the organ grinder, while I'm just the monkey with the stupid hat.

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All of that said, I'm not really as upset as I'm sure I come across. I do have to take some steps to make things better for myself, and if anything I'm primarily upset at myself for continually failing to get that in motion.