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2 September 1998
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thinking about it on the way home last night, it really occurred to me just how absurd the whole notion of happily-ever-after really is. there's a sense of complacency in it that would basically just eat away at any sort of lasting happiness. there's some truth in all these new post-modern, co-dependent faerie tales. as sickening as that genre is, the world that they portray--the world in which we live--is just as sad.
of course rational arguments have never been enough to dissuade me from a deeper rooted emotional belief, even if both sides are occurring within my head. this whole notion of happily-ever-after has been a guiding principle for so long, that it's hard to dismiss. of course it's very much a future-centric way of living yr life. because the ever-after's always gotta be after something. there's a reason that the stories always end with that, it's a nice way of tying things up once the main narrative has come to a close. but, our narratives never come to those sorts of ends, nor would we want them to. the "after" will always be after an indefinite amount of action still to come.
going the opposite direction, the "once upon a time" route, doesn't seem like a better option. so what does one who is hell-bent on mapping their life to some sort of archetypical, faerie tale reality to do? i guess there's always the middle ground. and i think that's where the faerie chess comes in.
faeries don't see reality the way we do. it's not simply that it's a game, which is something that i feel in the core of my being from time to time, but that the rules of this game are liquid. the real goal is not happily-ever-after, it's to be fully, consciously in the game all the time.
but, of course, there's still this whole "love" thing. and all the baggage that it brings with it. and it's taken me five hours to write this much, so i guess that will have to wait.
of course rational arguments have never been enough to dissuade me from a deeper rooted emotional belief, even if both sides are occurring within my head. this whole notion of happily-ever-after has been a guiding principle for so long, that it's hard to dismiss. of course it's very much a future-centric way of living yr life. because the ever-after's always gotta be after something. there's a reason that the stories always end with that, it's a nice way of tying things up once the main narrative has come to a close. but, our narratives never come to those sorts of ends, nor would we want them to. the "after" will always be after an indefinite amount of action still to come.
going the opposite direction, the "once upon a time" route, doesn't seem like a better option. so what does one who is hell-bent on mapping their life to some sort of archetypical, faerie tale reality to do? i guess there's always the middle ground. and i think that's where the faerie chess comes in.
faeries don't see reality the way we do. it's not simply that it's a game, which is something that i feel in the core of my being from time to time, but that the rules of this game are liquid. the real goal is not happily-ever-after, it's to be fully, consciously in the game all the time.
but, of course, there's still this whole "love" thing. and all the baggage that it brings with it. and it's taken me five hours to write this much, so i guess that will have to wait.