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15 December 1998
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okay, i was gonna muse on whether yesterday's post was pushing the envelope of the privacy/truth line or if it had crossed it. but i'm not. you decide. i will say that i don't divulge truly personal information unless the object of such has approved it, specifically or tacitly, or if i feel it's necessary to the narrative. i know that second one is sort of a vague escape clause, but hey, it's my site. and honestly, rereading it now, i don't think i went too far with what i posted.
so what did i decide to talk about instead? here goes:
i went out to spend some time with q tonight. i hadn't seen her in about two weeks, and so far, she's really the only new friend i've made in austin. work had again been a headache. daniel and i had gotten into a big argument over billing. george and i got vietnamese for lunch, and his fortune cookie said "For go [sic] confrontations, they will work themselves out." he decided it should've been mine. and the "lucky numbers" on the back were 6, 2, 2. the woman paying for her lunch in front of me in line had a bill of $6.22. when i left to meet q, i looked at my pager for the time, 6:22. (it's worth pointing out that my birthday is june 22.)
anyway, it was nice to get out of my apartment. it was nice to see q. we just sat and talked, basically. towards the end of the evening she said something that caused me to change my mind about the focus of this entry.
if you'll recall i mentioned that q had a boyfriend and that she had talked about breaking up with him. she told me tonight that she had, but that she already had a new boyfriend. and that bothered me, and i spent the half hour walk home wondering why.
i guess there's really a number of reasons, and it's prolly due in part to all of them. i do feel some sort of connection between us, but then to begrudge her having a boyfriend is silly because of my feelings for er!n. i'm sure it could have to do with the fact that this means she has someone in her life who is here and i don't. really, it's not all that hard to come up with reasons. although maybe a few hours distance have helped me see it a little more clearly.
i never got back to the 622s. i'm not sure what the point of that was anyway, 'cept that it was odd. and my own fortune cookie, by the way, said "A visitor my stir romantic feelings."
so what did i decide to talk about instead? here goes:
i went out to spend some time with q tonight. i hadn't seen her in about two weeks, and so far, she's really the only new friend i've made in austin. work had again been a headache. daniel and i had gotten into a big argument over billing. george and i got vietnamese for lunch, and his fortune cookie said "For go [sic] confrontations, they will work themselves out." he decided it should've been mine. and the "lucky numbers" on the back were 6, 2, 2. the woman paying for her lunch in front of me in line had a bill of $6.22. when i left to meet q, i looked at my pager for the time, 6:22. (it's worth pointing out that my birthday is june 22.)
anyway, it was nice to get out of my apartment. it was nice to see q. we just sat and talked, basically. towards the end of the evening she said something that caused me to change my mind about the focus of this entry.
if you'll recall i mentioned that q had a boyfriend and that she had talked about breaking up with him. she told me tonight that she had, but that she already had a new boyfriend. and that bothered me, and i spent the half hour walk home wondering why.
i guess there's really a number of reasons, and it's prolly due in part to all of them. i do feel some sort of connection between us, but then to begrudge her having a boyfriend is silly because of my feelings for er!n. i'm sure it could have to do with the fact that this means she has someone in her life who is here and i don't. really, it's not all that hard to come up with reasons. although maybe a few hours distance have helped me see it a little more clearly.
i never got back to the 622s. i'm not sure what the point of that was anyway, 'cept that it was odd. and my own fortune cookie, by the way, said "A visitor my stir romantic feelings."