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11 January 1999
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mostly written off-line, before/between class...
i'm always so nervous going to my first classes of a semester. and even more so at a new school. and i know that rationally, there's really nothing to be nervous about. but it's just so overwhelming for me. all the new-ness of it. new classes, new classrooms, new people. especially the new people. i feel like finding a nice corner, and sitting very still and very quiet. i won't. i'm not quite that neurotic. but i definitely recognize the desire.
so sitting in class now, waiting for it to start. this is always the tough part. (although there's no need to worry that i'm in the wrong room, as there's other people here with guitars.) it's still quiet and awkward and completely nerve-wracking. but, in a couple of weeks, it will be a room full of now familiar faces that i'll still feel uncomfortable talking too. heh.
that wasn't so bad. once we got our guitars out and began tuning, i sorta lost my tension. once again i know i'm in the right room, the theatre for my acting class. i'm still a bit on the nervous side, but this is a little more familiar, i really felt comfortable in the theatre at nmh. of course i've still got my guitar with me, so that's a little awkward.
acting went okay too. although it was basically just going over the syllabus and not at all participatory yet. the real miracle of the evening was finding an unmetered parking space right by the school. (i was parked even closer than i currently am to my apartment, as our lot was full when i got home.) and i should go to sleep because i have to get up early for class tomorrow. that's going to take some adjusting to.
i'm always so nervous going to my first classes of a semester. and even more so at a new school. and i know that rationally, there's really nothing to be nervous about. but it's just so overwhelming for me. all the new-ness of it. new classes, new classrooms, new people. especially the new people. i feel like finding a nice corner, and sitting very still and very quiet. i won't. i'm not quite that neurotic. but i definitely recognize the desire.
so sitting in class now, waiting for it to start. this is always the tough part. (although there's no need to worry that i'm in the wrong room, as there's other people here with guitars.) it's still quiet and awkward and completely nerve-wracking. but, in a couple of weeks, it will be a room full of now familiar faces that i'll still feel uncomfortable talking too. heh.
that wasn't so bad. once we got our guitars out and began tuning, i sorta lost my tension. once again i know i'm in the right room, the theatre for my acting class. i'm still a bit on the nervous side, but this is a little more familiar, i really felt comfortable in the theatre at nmh. of course i've still got my guitar with me, so that's a little awkward.
acting went okay too. although it was basically just going over the syllabus and not at all participatory yet. the real miracle of the evening was finding an unmetered parking space right by the school. (i was parked even closer than i currently am to my apartment, as our lot was full when i got home.) and i should go to sleep because i have to get up early for class tomorrow. that's going to take some adjusting to.