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27 April 1999
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dreamt this morning that i was traveling along a wooded country road. i say traveling because i wasn't walking, but i wasn't in any sort of vehicle either. it wasn't a sort of disembodied awareness, because i had a body, although i was bigger than life in a way. i was thinking about the cars that i had owned, five or six of them, in the dream. then i was sorta stepping over mountains, with a perspective something like that of a bird, soaring high above the landscape, and then circling down closer to the ground, but i wasn't flying. and as i changed my focus, the world distorted with my field of vision, and some things got closer, while others were pushed away. it was spring. i was on a ski slope. sam was making his last snowboard run of the season. then we went back to what was our home in the dream, a lavish victorian house. there was a girl there who was an amalgam of various aspects of different friends of mine, and former girlfriends. she was with her new boyfriend, and although we had decided that we would never really be a couple, i found myself jealous, and acting stupidly.
started actually painting my landscape this morning. the light was great for the scenery, but two hours outside, even in the shade, was too much sun for me. my brain felt a little cooked. although in the middle of painting this squirrel climbed down out of a tree, and sat right in the middle of my composition, as if it wanted me to do a portrait.
i really should've dropped my philosophy of religion class. but i live in this little world where i always seem to come out on top no matter how little effort i actually expend. doesn't look like i'm going to this time though. although i still feel like the class has been worth it. i've gotten an awful lot out of it. but it is going to be a black mark on my academic record. (not that my whole year at umass isn't, but i didn't send those transcripts to risd. the do have my transcripts from nmh though, and although i had about a b average through high school, there are some spotty bits.)
started actually painting my landscape this morning. the light was great for the scenery, but two hours outside, even in the shade, was too much sun for me. my brain felt a little cooked. although in the middle of painting this squirrel climbed down out of a tree, and sat right in the middle of my composition, as if it wanted me to do a portrait.
i really should've dropped my philosophy of religion class. but i live in this little world where i always seem to come out on top no matter how little effort i actually expend. doesn't look like i'm going to this time though. although i still feel like the class has been worth it. i've gotten an awful lot out of it. but it is going to be a black mark on my academic record. (not that my whole year at umass isn't, but i didn't send those transcripts to risd. the do have my transcripts from nmh though, and although i had about a b average through high school, there are some spotty bits.)