magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

first the sad bit: sometime tonight i lost the 25¢, supermarket vending machine ring that yuka gave me. sniff, sniff.

now, story time. when i got my photos the other day i loved the four pix i had of the missing ring in colour. i started joking about how i should put them up in one of the empty spaces in the gallery where the degree project proposals are.

this morning i poured a slab of plaster to catch the drops from my leaky vessel. it was all uneven 'cause i threw all this cardboard junk that was on the plaster table into the mix. then i put ink-coloured water into the vessel so that the drips were grey and black.

i said that i should include the slab with my degree project proposal. then i actually put one of the missing rings (it just occurred to me that i've been calling them "missing rings" and i started this entry out talking about losing a real ring) on it, and it hit me: moon colony.

so i took the joke one step further and started showing it to people. peter came over at one point, and said "that's a nice surface." i told him that i was thinking about putting it up downstairs, even though it would label me as trouble maker for the next three and a half years. he said i should do it.

so then i had to. i found a pedestal and set it up in an empty spot. i went to the computer lab and typed up an abstract. (including the fact that sunday is the 30th anniversary of the second manned moon landing.)

the people who talked to me about it thought that it was cool. even fifth year students who were presenting their own proposals. but i think word filtered back to peter that a few people were offended by the whole thing. so he came up to me and said something like: "i'm all for rocking the boat, but all good jokes have to come to an end." i was planning on taking it down tonight anyway.

then afterwards he said that he was sorry for encouraging me. but, what's done is done. and i'm sorry that i offended anyone, that certainly wasn't my intention, but i'm not going to apologize for doing it. it's all about speaking up and taking chances. getting noticed. i want to get as much out of this school as i can, and i'm not going to do so by being just an anonymous, quiet, pink-haired kid.

and tonight i went to see being john malkovich. very, very cool movie. awfully twisted. but cool.