magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

came home at three thirty in the morning. (this would be at the end of today, for those keeping track. it's one of those reverse chronological things.) email from cybèle about a party at yuka's that i hadn't heard a thing about. must have been last night. i feel so left out. not that i even really enjoy parties. but i'm assuming a fair number of my friends were there. and i was what, sitting at home watching opera on video?

and tonight: i went to the fav senior show, by myself. sat with dana and sarah from sculpture though. some of the films were really amazing. some were just mediocre. but it definitely made me want to make movies. i want to be in an fav show.

hung out with chris.k and jen.c and matt afterwards. some story involving chris.k and a girl who's going to rome that i didn't quite get all of. he knocked on my door earlier, trying in a way to ask my opinion about something related to all of that. got some food. watched lock, stock, and two smoking barrels with a sleeping jen.c.

and yeah, i'm still attracted to her. but not in any sort of serious way. and cybèle seemed to imply in her email that she thinks that molly has something of a crush on alex.h, which i've never noticed, and maybe it was just something totally out of context, but. it's all very convoluted, isn't it?