magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

don't know how much i really accomplished today. things are crunching down on me in this week before spring break and yet i keep on procrastinating. i don't know why i do this to myself. i was in studio from noon to five. i waffled some more about the placement of my dye room. i drew couple of sketchy drawings at the wrong scale. i'm supposed to have my presentation more or less set by tuesday. that's the day after tomorrow. for tomorrow i'm supposed to have a book read. i'm about a third of the way through it. on a normal monday i've got class most of the day. then tomorrow i've also got a special make-up italian class. so i'm in class until eight thirty, and i won't have had dinner by that point.

and is all this pressure enough to motivate me to buckle down and do some of this work? of course not. it just makes me feel vaguely overwhelmed, with a desire to forget about it all by watching tv or sitting in front of my computer or going to bed. there's a voice in the back of my head that's saying "there's only four days of school until spring break." as if that makes everything better. as if the end is in sight, so everything's okay. don't worry about it, it will work itself out somehow. and then you can sleep late for a couple of days. there's no point in pushing yrself for only four days.

gah.

i keep thinking that one of these days i'm going to get the hang of time management. yep.