magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

i put on my headphones and closed my eyes, and while i didn't fall asleep, i began to drift -- the scale and position of things around me shifted in my mind's eye so that i felt if i opened my eyes the resulting disorientation of things snapping back into place would probably be too much to bear. then a flood of afterimages, people and objects from a deep subconscious, washed over me, pulsing as if with the currents of an ocean, with the blood vessels in my eyelids.

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chris.k said at dinner: "i think this is the first regular dinner that we've all eaten together in quite a while."

me: "since sushi night anyway."

chris.k: "i don't consider sushi or burrito night to be normal meals. on sushi night we have guests and on burrito night we get drunk."