magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

hey, it's jealousy day!

stef (of lindsey):

please get her out of there, thats my hole in your heart, its shaped like me not her.

lindsey (of stef):

"and if anything changes, let me know, because i think i should be informed."

bean (of random italian):

"i have to continue getting ready."

"and where are you off to?"

"i met an italian man last night, and i'm seeing him again tonight at nine. isn't that exciting?"

"no."

"i'm sure i'll let you know how it all goes."

but i suppose that i should be flattered by the fact that both stef and lindsey are in some way jealous of the position that the other has in my life right now. and honestly, it makes me feel special, loved. and really, i should be glad that lindsey is pursuing other options since i've made the choice to try and fix things with stef. i'm the one with the least grounds for jealousy. and it makes the least sense.

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and the phone with george this afternoon. updating him on my story. "you seem like you got it mostly figured out."

"yeah, but the next two and a half months will still be hard."

he updated me on his story. people are stupid. but i don't know on which side of the equation they are stupider.