magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

1/5 i'm still torn between the dual urges:

2/5 to step back and let you have a chance to figure out what you want on your own.

3/5 or to try and be more proactive, as, remember when were were sitting on the bench across from

4/5 438 and things were just *good* and you told me to let you know if you were ever being a dork?

5/5 i really do love you. really.

did start my dot project this afternoon. fifty dots on the city. fifty photographs on two rolls of film. seven drawings of the locations of these dots in my sketchbook. developed the film. and worked on some paintings too. so today was actually a productive day.