magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

dreamt, briefly, of stef this morning. kissing her goodbye before an absence from which we would be returning. the dream made me feel miserable throughout the morning.

Can we have miserable mornings together e and I had another awful fight......look on the bright side I tell myself - it's the last one

i'm certainly willing to share my miserable mornings, they're more than enough pain for me. of course ideally mornings would be wonderful affairs.

but. spent some time crying. napping, and she returned to my dreams.

went swimming with george in the evening. mountain lake. tired myself out.