magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

i woke up completely empty this morning. an emotional hangover, of sorts.

brunch at life cafe, which is something that i had been meaning on trying for a while. tofu scramble. coffee. a mimosa.

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four years ago today, was the first time after we had met that sarah.m had a birthday. today is the second. i dug up her email address to send her a happy birthday.

also four years ago today, i wrote, somewhat obliquely, on my website, about how i had been finding myself crushing briefly on one person after another. i only remember one specific person with any degree of certainty. you only get one guess who. it was probably the first time that i felt any sort of attraction towards her.

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i sat up on the roof tonight. making phone calls and smoking cigarettes.

i heard from sonali that allison.s was going to be singing with a choir group at the oscars. i turned the tv on, but only had one eye on it part time and must have missed her.

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i've mentioned that every week since i've been in the city i've randomly run into someone from risd who i didn't know was here. last week i didn't see anyone. tonight, headed down to the laundry room to remove my clothes from the drier, i crossed paths with andrea, who was in id. 'do you live here?' she asked. 'ashley and i are just moving in.' and ashley, whose department i am not sure of, followed her in the door a moment later.

so two risd kids. to make up for none last week. and they're moving into my building.

i gave them a hand carrying a load of their stuff up to their apartment. its a corner unit, with windows on two sides. really nice. much nicer than my place. 'you could just come up and hang out here whenever,' andrea said.