magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

Into the office at noon. My computer is occupied by someone else. A cup of coffee and some pacing around. Then into Ben's office. 'I'm a bit concerned about my status here. I think I've actually been booked to work on maybe one project since Democracy Plaza. Other than that, if I show up there's sometimes work. If I don't show up there's nothing. PDG is my primary source of income, and I need it to be more reliable than this.'

His response was at least a little encouraging. Its not that I'm being actively ignored. It's just that I've somehow fallen through the cracks. There is a lot going on right now that I could probably be involved in. A lot of Bank of America stuff being scheduled now for 2005.

It's a conversation that I probably should have had two weeks ago. But good to get it out in the open now.

We'll see where it all leads.

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Later on in the day, watery eyes. All through bedtime. I don't know if it's allergies or if I've been crying.