magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

did a performance piece with paint today. entitled "creation myth". about my fear of infinity, and my fear of phones. and invocations, creating life. it wasn't very well tied together. but there were a lot of ideas that i think would be worth continuing to work with. and maybe with some stronger text, the piece could continue to work as a whole.

outside of class, i spent a good part of the day questioning my whole choice of major. saw olivia in the met at lunch, who transferred here from cooper union where she was doing architecture. now she's in photo, so she's been through it firsthand. the library was very quiet because of the snowstorm, and i continued reflecting on the issue for the better part of my shift.

called my mom tonight. talked about these sorts of things. motivation. the whole concept of a career. learning marketable skills. i've decided that the phrase "that's the way the world is" (or its many variants) is much akin to "but all my friends are doing it." if all yr friends went to college to learn marketable skills, would you too? of course most of my friends haven't.