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15 June 1998
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okay. so i didn't go to my nmh reunion. i just sat around at home and played video games with sam and george and then made pasta for dinner and then sat around some more and watched inane tv. and then saturday i went and ate japanese food which is always cool. so i didn't have a bad weekend or anything. just not as eventful as it might have been. of course i did get a nasty tension headache saturday night, and so if i had been at nmh, i probably would have just been miserable anyway.
the question of see is still the thing foremost in my mind. george has actually started talking about maybe giving it a go, and really, that would make the decision easier, things wouldn't be completely on my shoulders, and even if they were, i'd have someone to hang out with and i wouldn't end up like i did in california, lying on the floor of my room feeling completely alone in the world. (granted, that was a little pathetic, but..)
i decided to do an i ching reading this morning about the whole deal, and really, it was right on the mark. 56, traveling, "...you are traveling through the situation at hand. it is unlikely that you will put down roots and fashion yr life around it...whatever the reason for yr visit, you will move on..." line 4 changing: "...this state of mind leaves you feeling uneasy -- knowing you must move on, and yet anxious to protect and hold intact that which you have already accomplished." becoming 52, meditation, pretty self explanatory, really.
the question of see is still the thing foremost in my mind. george has actually started talking about maybe giving it a go, and really, that would make the decision easier, things wouldn't be completely on my shoulders, and even if they were, i'd have someone to hang out with and i wouldn't end up like i did in california, lying on the floor of my room feeling completely alone in the world. (granted, that was a little pathetic, but..)
i decided to do an i ching reading this morning about the whole deal, and really, it was right on the mark. 56, traveling, "...you are traveling through the situation at hand. it is unlikely that you will put down roots and fashion yr life around it...whatever the reason for yr visit, you will move on..." line 4 changing: "...this state of mind leaves you feeling uneasy -- knowing you must move on, and yet anxious to protect and hold intact that which you have already accomplished." becoming 52, meditation, pretty self explanatory, really.