magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

didn't get to the studio at all today. did spend the afternoon trying to dig up historical maps of cairo for islamic architecture though.

there was an early birthday party for jen tonight. molly was going to cook something fancy, but decided towards the last minute that she really couldn't handle cooking for twenty-ish people. so it just became desert.

somehow, even though it was mostly friends, i felt terribly lonely and out of place. and it wasn't just because it was for jen, although that was part of it i'm sure.

afterwards, about half of us went to go see the play the real inspector hound being staged by a group of risd kids. most everyone else went off to their respective studios, where i probably should have gone, but didn't. i felt that it was too cold to walk all the way down to the beb though. or some such excuse. molly and aoi were headed there, both smoking. i had never seen molly smoke before. minus a few points.

talked with jenna before the play about high school. i don't think that we've ever really had a conversation, so that was kinda nice.

the play was okay. maybe even good for a school without a theatre program. but i couldn't help thinking that it could have been better. it's a tom stoppard play after all.

talked with randi briefly afterwards, then stopped by to see what was up at the mixed media office. susie, stacey, and jen.f were just headed out for milkshakes. which isn't my thing obviously, but they asked if i'd like to come along anyway, and i figured why not?

i think i felt a little less out of place with them than i had earlier in the night. certainly less lonely. i had completely forgotten the loop that had been running through my head about wishing i could find a new crush.

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photos: bret and sam over wintersession break. sonali and me from last week.