magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

today in history:

five years ago lakeville internet began offering unlimited use dial up internet access. i made some graphics for our website and sent out emails to all our customers, our groundhog's day gift to you. in actuality only two of our users had ever exceeded the previous limit of sixty hours a month, and we had never charged them extra.

four years ago i was living in california. this seems like a good date to mark my discovery of sito, and hygrid in particular. i can't say for sure. my first piece was not uploaded until the sixth.

three years ago i was in class at nwcc in winsted, ct. i may have seen er!n as i walked from my car to class, although that may have been the previous week. two days later i would receive my first email from her, which was the start of our friendship outside of class.

two years ago i was living in austin. my brain was being stimulated by the readings and discussions for my philosophy of religion class, which i thoroughly enjoyed but did not write all the papers for and so didn't get credit for which would really come in handy now. the work stuff was the falling apart of li.com. marc, who had been answering the phones was leaving for virginia beach, signalling the very real beginning of the end that had been brewing forever.

one year ago i spent most of the day with susie. jen.c had just started dating matthew and my emotions were trying to move on. going to the movies was the closest i would ever come to a date with susie, although much more recently cybèle would suggest that i ask her out.

zero years ago i went over to melody's for dinner. it was nice, i had a good time, but it felt a little awkward. "isn't it supposed to?" garth asked me later. maybe, but sometimes things do just feel more comfortable. "but that's not a guarantee that things will work out in the long run." no, but i don't think i believe in forever anymore anyway.