magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

i thought it was thursday all day today. not consistently in such a way that i realized at the end of the day that it was not in fact thursday, and that i still have half a week worth of classes and work before spring break. but every time my mind found itself trying to schedule actions and events for the next couple of days it immediately jumped ahead to thursday, and i began worrying that i had missed important meetings or classes or the beginning of spring. this feeling actually began sometime after midnight last night. i was briefly convinced that i had forgotten about the library committee meeting that i was supposed to attend at lunchtime on tuesday. after agonizing about it for a while, i realized that no, tuesday hadn't happened yet. i drew a big red "L" on the back of my left hand.

and i did make it to the meeting. i was even half an hour early. and most of the business was architecturally related in a way. about the new library, whether it be part of moneo's central block building (if and when it ever gets built), or a renovation of an old bank across the river, or what.

my crit with anne was probably the shortest of anyone in our section. she didn't lay trace on my drawings and sketch things out as she did with nearly everyone else. (old questions about the meanings of short crits.) but i started writing down a list of everything that we had talked about and it amounted to quite a bit of helpful information.

of course she also decided that for those of us who where not going anywhere exotic for break, we could have the extra time to continue working. that of course shot my motivation for the rest of the day down to zero. the two hours of sleep wasn't helping matters either.

and the knowledge that i wouldn't be getting home until probably sometime after nine and would likely be falling asleep in an italian movie before then. i cento passi. a screening sponsored by the brown italian department, before the us release, with a reception with the director or producer or something. and despite the glass of wine i had beforehand i managed to stay awake. and it was a very good movie. sort of made me feel as if i'm selling my political beliefs short by not acting on them much.

which is actually something i've been thinking about because of my history of modern china class as well. the political system in question is in both cases communism, but it's not a far cry from communist idealism to my own idealist anarchism.