magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

okay, so this thought just occurred to me. you mentioned, off-handedly the other day, that you had thought 'what if i want to have kids someday?' the implication of this thought is that you were expecting to be with me when that hypothetical point came. and more than the actual problems that such a situation (different child-rearing desires) could bring up the thought affected you in more subtle ways. the thought that we would still be together in ten or fifteen years scared you. (it's scary, even for me.) and you ran from that.