magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

it's actually now three in the morning of tomorrow. this is my third try at writing today's entry.

i spent half of today cleaning and packing, until it became too emotionally draining. that was what i wrote about the first time. 'compare and contrast the experience of packing for leaving and packing for returning.'

the second time i simply excerpted two emails from insound. from 8 april: 'We would like you to know that your order has shipped! ... Your order was shipped to stef tousignant...' and today: 'We would like you to know that your return has been processed!' she actually took the time and effort to return the birthday present that i bought for her.

but, it's may first. flowers in full bloom. leaves that shade of green that screams spring. rabbit, rabbit. and all that. and there were times that i smiled today. that i laughed. at our final group dinner, ezio told us that when things in our lives weren't so good, to look back on tonight, tomorrow, this year. and for me, and i think a lot of us here, this year has been in large parts not so good itself. but i lived in rome for a year. i saw some amazing things. i smiled some. laughed. it's the middle of spring and i'm coming home now and sometimes i know that things will be okay.