magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

i so don't want to be doing any work. it's just shy of 11pm and i really haven't accomplished much in the furtherance of my degree project today. i did see friedrich for the first time in two weeks. we still didn't talk about my project (i haven't spoken with him about it in three weeks, since the day after our last crit). he asked me 'should we be getting worried?' i vacillated. 'it's really a yes or no answer.'

'yes.'

i managed to work so well on my own in rome last year. randa was even more hands-off than friedrich, and yet i did more and better work than i ever have before (or since, certainly). i'm sure i could list off a dozen reasons why it's different now, but they're just excuses since i know that i have that potential.