magicbeans. nothing if not awkward.

I've been struggling to get my letters of recommendation together for my grad school app. Its the part of the process that I have the last control over, that, and the fact that I have to call people, as in on the phone, to ask them to do me a favour, is making it by far the most difficult part. I don't like having to ask for things. (Some people would say that I simply don't like asking anything at all.) Yes, I'm a procrastinator, yes I still have tons of work to do on my portfolio as well, but that falls totally within my own realm of control, and is not giving me the same sort of ulcer-aggravating stress.

And the stress only makes it harder to deal with. Leading to more stress. Leading to more shooting pains in my gut.

And I feel stupid about it. I mean, just get on the fucking ball. This is something you want, right? Right?